In my yet short life, I’ve played a lot of roles, done a lot of things, had a lot of fun – more laughter and love than I think I deserve. And for a while now I’ve been cutting myself off gradually, reducing my circle, removing the people who are toxic – and I’ve been trying to make sure that I only have serious people in my life, people who I can have serious and intellectual conversations with, people who know exactly how deep to delve into stuff without becoming obsessed with it. But all that seriousness brought with it an unwanted guest – monotony. That’s where things got messed up.
You see, monotony doesn’t just happen suddenly. It’s a slow process which you don’t even notice at first. It starts with getting comfortable with a routine, a certain way of things happening around you. You let the clock dictate your life. Your alarm rings at 7:00AM, you’re out of the house at 8:00AM, and you reach office and your desk at 8:30AM, and so on and so forth your day goes. Work, eat, sleep, repeat. You try to make lunch plans with friends other than work in the start, even try to hang out with them after work, but the planning and the getting everyone together starts taking its toll until leaving it be seems like a relief. And soon all you’re doing is work, home, work, home and the cycle keeps going, and before you know it you realise this is the monotony that you always said you would avoid but you’ve become a victim of it too like all the people you used to judge for not having lives.
The worst part of it all is that you don’t miss the hangouts that you had to plan, you don’t even miss half the people that you have to beg to hang out. You miss the spontaneity of just getting up and going out and having a night on the town. You miss the nonsense, the non-intellectual shit that people throw around when they aren’t worried about being judged because they know the words will be forgotten even before the crowd around them disperses. You miss the crazy, the pathetic, the hopeless wonder of not having to report to a machine every morning and you miss not having to listen to random people tell you how to do the things that you know you’re good at.
You miss being YOU!
The intellectual conversations, the seriousness of life – it’s all over-rated and you’re angry at the universe for not making you realise it sooner.
So, the next time someone makes a sudden plan and tells you to join in, don’t give in to the monotony and decline, GET OUT THERE and have some fun. Relish in the nonsense. Leave your serious intellect at home – it has no place at this table. Breathe in the fresh air of nonsense and live a little. Get a taste of what you’re missing and hopefully be inspired enough to break the monotony once and for all.